January’s daily project – selfies

So in my post announcing my word for 2017 – I mentioned that I’ll be doing a daily project every month – so each month I’ll be doing something every day, a new habit or learning or whatever. Basically embodying and living my word for the year – B O L D.

So, here we are at the start of the year and so it begins. I’m going easy on myself and starting off with self-portraits. Hahaha. Not easy at all actually. Like many photographers, I’m just not a fan of being in front of the camera. Weird, right? Ha!

Actually, that’s not completely accurate. I think there have been times when I’ve loved being photographed. But for the last few years not so much. It’s not always about not wanting to be in front of it though, so much as having other stuff I’m far more interested in photographing. And really – there’s only so many photographs of a tired, bleary eyed mama in yoga pants and breastmilk stained t-shirt or hoodie that anyone needs in their life.

I have been noticing more and more though, how when we’re going through old photos, C asks where I was and I say, ‘I was there. I was just behind the camera.’ And then we’re both sad about it. So, no more. I’ve been making an effort to get into the frame more and including myself in group shots as well but this is a different.

I want to remember that I’m beautiful and that my beauty has naught to do with how I look, but more how I feel and how I project that into the world. So there it is. After all this, I may get totally sick of it and never want to be in a picture again. Ha! We shall see.

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The goal is to do 365 of self-portraits but if I just manage January, I’ll be pleased. We’ll see how I feel by the time February rolls around. Ha!

BOLD

That’s my word for this year. It was going to be forgiveness but it’s not, it’s BOLD.

B O L D

I’m going to be afraid of doing stuff (I know it) but this year I’m not going to let it stop me from doing it anyway.

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To start myself off, I’m working on one new thing every month, for every day of that month.

I’ll do a post at the start of every month talking about what the goal is and then at the end, another to talk about how I did. I’ll make a list below with links so you can see the whole year’s project in one place at the end of it all.

 – January –

 – February –

My word for 2017

So for the last few years, I’ve been choosing a word for the year that kinda becomes my theme, my thing to work or focus on for the year.

Sometimes I find it really helpful and it keeps me motivated but other years I forget about it or it gets too big, too scary, too overwhelming and then nothing comes of it. Invariably, in those instances, it just becomes one more thing to beat myself up about.

Sad face.

No more! For this coming year, I’m leaning toward ‘forgiveness’. Its something I think the world could do with a little more of and it would certainly serve me. Plus its definitely something I would like my children to be familiar with.

As someone* once said,

‘Resentment is like drinking poison and then expecting the other person to die.’

This is not something I want to keep doing and its definitely not something I want my children to learn from me. This Forbes article titled the above quote describes the cost of resentment well.

What many seem to fail to understand is that forgiving someone is not the same as accepting, condoning or colluding with someone or their actions. In fact, it is actually for you, not for the one you’re forgiving. It helps you to move on from the past, from holding on to the grudge and allows space for you to accept reality and make a choice that serves you.

Do it for you. You are worthy, you are enough. I am!

 

*I believe it was Malachy McCourt but I have heard it attributed to various sources over the years.